Wednesday, October 28, 2009

It's Just Me

Awhile ago I put some old PJs on before watching a movie with my husband. I looked in the mirror and I liked what I saw. It was just me, my 50 year old face and body.  I always find some fault or flaw in my reflection and I always have something negative run through my head. Tonight I just didn't. I don't know why. I was actually happy to look and see me looking back. Now I do not know what happens to everyone else when they look in the mirror. I don't know if I'm different or not, but I'm not sure if the way I felt about my reflection has ever happened to me before.
Sometimes there are little miracles in my life. Sometimes grace shows itself in soft perfection.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

I Can't Drive 55!

Tooling along thinking this will probably be the last ride of the season. I wasn't paying attention,  SHERIFF CAR, SH- -! How fast was I going? Seventy, crap!
Brake lights, here he comes." You were going sixty eight. Liscence, registration, hey your helmet's not DOT."
Waiting, waiting, waiting....
"We're letting you go. Have a nice day!"

It's Flash 55 fridays with your host the Mr. Knowitall. Try it 55 words no more, no less, then let the G-man know.

This really happened today. you should have seen the guy when i asked to take a picture, I was really pushing my luck!

 I put 7052 miles on my brand new bike, you remember, the one I was manifesting last winter. Yeah baby!

Wednesday, October 21, 2009


This photo is the wallpaper on my computer right now. I took it in September. I just wanted to share it 'cause I love it. Click on it. Feelin' it?

Monday, October 19, 2009

Feats Never Failed Me

I'm going to steal a blog idea from a blogger friend Syd who recently posted this and I think it's a great idea for a post here. What are the 10 best moments of your life? I actually had trouble narrowing it down, but here they are.
  1. When I was 12 years old, the all girl drum and bugle corp I belonged to won The World Open. Standing on the football field with the top 12 girls corps and listening to the scores one by one, till only two were left and then finally announcing the second place corp, leaving us, was a breathtaking moment. I remember crying, it was awesome.
  2. The  parade through my home town after we won was almost as good. The whole town lined the streets and there were banners hanging from a big underpass on one of the main streets. We did a parade through town and a concert at the end. Thousands of people turned out. It was a 12 year old's dream come true.
  3. My first kiss.
  4. Seeing my daughter's face for the first time when she was born.
  5. My first wedding day.
  6. My sister,me and 3 of our best friends were together for a small wedding shower for my sister. Our friends lived in NY and we lived in NC at the time. We hadn't all been together in over ten years. We all piled in the car to go somewhere and we were playing "Dixie Chicken" by Little Feat off the " Waiting For Columbus" album and singing at the top of our lungs.I had a history with that albumn. We had all played a lot of fuseball to that albumn. It was happy and spontanious and the car was filled with love.
  7. The first time my husband put his arm around me.
  8. All the firsts with my husband after that....
  9. When my friend had a big party for all the "swells" in my hometown at the old jail he had turned into a restaraunt. My husband was making choppers in the basement. The restaraunt and the chopper shop had gotten a lot of press at the time and everyone wanted to be involved. It was a big deal in our little town. We were on Good Morning America when he opened. Anyway, we were "the biker" people. Like rock stars or something. We were cool. I knew many people there and had never been allowed in their circles before. Now they wanted to be in ours. That was a big bag of fun. 
  10. There are many, many  things that include my daughter Annie. Lets just say she provided me with the oportunities to recognise the grace in my life over and over again. 
Now I've already kinda cheated and gone over, because I really couldn't pick just ten. Theres a whole great story that goes along with the Little Feat albumn that definately constitutes one of the best days of my life.  There are so many moments that stand out just because you know at that moment that it just doesn't get any better than this. What's great about getting older is that I know this quite often now. When I was younger, I didn't know how great the moments were until I looked back on them.
I also know now that some of the "bad" moments in my life were some of the best too. It's the perspective that gets better with time I think.
Thanks for the idea Syd! I had a blast writting this.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Live and In Person

This blog is going to be based on nothing but positive, life affirming things. My introduction to blogging, with my other blog, "What Now" had a completely different theme, which you can go read if you choose. I will not focus time and energy on those topics here.
Why have I decided this, you might ask? I truly believe that what you focus on, you manifest in your life. I kind of think that I was cultured to focus on negativity, drama perhaps, and so that is the way things have gone in many ways. Now I am more aware of this truth than I have ever been in my life. Good things happen to people who work hard and pay attention. I don't have to do that anymore! Holy cow! What a revelation! DING, DING, DING! No more calls please, we have a winner! I have really begun to pay attention to what I say, what I think, and now, what I write.
Yep, I write affirmations, have for years and years. I've been making vision boards for years, waaaay before they became trendy. I meditate, visualise, all these things. What I wasn't doing was changing how I speak and what I focus on in my everyday life. This matters, a lot.
Yesterday is gone, tomorrow is not here, all we have is this moment. If I am talking about unhappy things, writting about drama, or the things that made me angry, or the things I think you should change, well then, the universe, God, Allah, whatever you want to call the force that runs things, it brings me more of that.
There are many things I've had to do over and over again before I got it right. Writing is one of those things, but I'm in a place in my life where there's enough of a space that I can focus and be very clear.
I have never really focused on the things that make me happy. I've kind of done my life by default, after disaster, then have fun. What's fun? I was squeezing in things in between crisis's. In fact, it was fun because of the crisis. Fun was even creating the crisis. Oh drama, I'm sooooo done. So here in this new place, I will only discuss, write about , post, light and love, joy, abundance and all the good things that I deserve. Read if you want. I'll post whether or not you do, because THIS is powerful stuff!